Bad Mood.

Today I did a sucks presentation that I didn't did before.

The presentation spoil my mood for whole day.

WTF that I'm talking about?!

Got people presented before me, But I still can did the stupid mistake.

Why I got example also I can did the Fking mistake?

I really really really hate myself.

Can talk very well in front my friend even though is lecture 

IF I'm using Chinese.

I feel that I wanna cry.

Now and even after the sucks presentation.

I keep asking myself that why I can't do it well?

Just because the presentation was using ENGLISH.

and my ENGLISH is not that good.

I really really very regret for my attitude while I doing my whole project.

and also HATE it.

And I didn't prepare so well.

I already know that myself is not good in presentation but I still keep in the play mood 

and didn't put more effort in my  presentation skill.

I know that CHANCE can't come for second times.

So, I really need to do a more better presentation on next time.

My presentation skill is worst from Sem 1 until NOW.

What I can do?

I try my best.

But I know that is not enough.

I better that secondary school BUT I still need more and more hard working 

to get a good presentation.

I can spoke very well when I using Chinese BUT English just make me 

Lack self-confidence.

You know that I can act anyFking role in front my friend or even a drama.

BUT when I come from presentation, I change!!

I'm starting nervous,scare,sound slow and even can't hear it.

Where the real me?!

Is it I'm a sucks student?

SIGH*

...

I heard English Station.

I wrote English in message.

I listen English song.

I try to understand what the DJ talking about.

But I can't not TALK!!!!

My mouth got GOLD!!!

My mouth got SHIT!!!

I really admire that the student can talk well or do their presentation very well.

Really really admire.

Just because I can't.

Why I studying the Chinese School?

Or I need to scold myself that : You are the most people that make your english not improve as well?

* MOOD GETTING DOWN AND DOWN *